Hi, I'm Murphy and I'd like to share my story with you. Do you ever feel like you are putting on a mask for the people in your life? Not just a mask but a body suit. Everything you do, say and act on feels like you are trying to prove something. Prove what? To who? The voice in your head telling you that you are not enough.
I grew up in my mask. As an athlete, over achiever, always had my crap together, scholar, really whatever I chose to be that day. With no true identity within me, I felt like a fraud in my own life. The cycle continued until my eating disorders, chase for perfection, and abusive relationships had me questioning my purpose for living. I felt trapped in my own skin instead of living in it. Then came my wake up call...
God had been knocking on my door, on my heart, my whole life. I didn't want to let myself admit that I was loved already. Loved without being perfect? Without having to do everything on my to-do list for the day? As my story began to form into something I could admit to myself, I began to share it with others and slowly discover who I was. That this perfect life I was striving for was not so perfect, but incredibly flawed. Which made it all the more beautiful and unique. I discovered that I was not alone. Other people had this frantic mind! I learned to really love myself. Not just say it, but actually mean it.
As I dove into the fitness world as a career, I learned quickly that we, as women, believe our outward appearance defines us. That it is a revelation of who we are. But it isn't. We all are more than what we see, we are what we believe we are.
Now I want to help you. Wherever you are, whatever your life looks like, you are fine just the way you are. All we need sometimes is a little help, a little guidance or a little accountability. I want to be that for you on your journey.